OK, well relatively speaking anyway! When I don't give up, I win! When I give it my all, I win! When it hurts, and I keep going, I win! When I really don't want to, but I do it anyway....I WIN!
Today I was DETERMINED to not get in my own way! I ate much better. I drank more water. I got some housework accomplished. And I had a killer swim practice. I say killer because I thought it really would kill me!
We did 2200 yds tonight. Pyramids! I thought I would love this, except that I am frequently reminded of how over weight and out of shape I am! I am so much slower than my other team mates! I'm like that fat kid, whose mom signed them up just so they could get them to do SOMETHING active!
I have pretty much gotten over the fact that I am no swimsuit model, and will probably never be. I have gotten over the fact that I am pretty much the oldest person who practices at the time we do. I have also pretty much gotten over the walk of shame. I mean, I do it so often now, I just ignore the people on deck!
The one thing I can NOT get over is that I am so stinkin' slow! I mean, anyone who knows me knows that I am VERY competitive! I DO NOT lose. It's not that I don't like to lose. I DON'T lose! Board games, card games, etc. I don't accept defeat graciously! (Just ask my poor hubby!) I hate that I am always the slowest one out there! I sometimes push myself too hard and forget to pace myself, because I don't like losing! Though, we really aren't racing!
So tonight, I am singing my song...."All I do is win win win, no matter what!" If I don't give up and keep going when it's tough, then I really am a winner. At least in the self satisfying way, anyway. Besides, I DON'T lose!